As upset and as angry as I am, I still miss you.
Do you know how fucking pathetic that makes me feel?
You never understood
My need to flood my veins with coffee,
And you’d crinkle your nose
Every time my hands wrapped around
A warm mug.
It was too bitter for your taste;
You craved something more sweet;
The same words lingered on your lips
When you left.
They say that you are what you eat,
And it only makes sense
That since I try to drown everything in coffee,
I come out the other end
All nerves and bitterness.
I was different from the girls you usually went after;
Maybe you thought
I could be what you needed
And could give you the spark you craved.
Sure, it was a rush at first,
But the crash left us both drained,
And you couldn’t fix it.
My kisses left a biting taste in your mouth,
And my touch left stains on your skin.
You never understood this part of me,
And the way you told me
You couldn’t do this anymore
Said everything you didn’t
About how you needed to shake
For something sweeter,
Something that wouldn’t
Turn you sour too.